I don’t know about you but, the “lazy days of summer” does not apply to me. Summer is full of fun, good times with friends and family, and a hefty dose of chaos. This summer, we traveled for swim competitions, college tours, and to spend time with loved ones we don’t get to see often enough. This means a lot of packing and unpacking in addition to the usual chores of life.
…but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else. Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances… (1 Thessalonians 5:15-18)
This is all good stuff, but for an introvert, who cherishes time alone, it can create quite a challenge. I didn’t have time to sit in my favorite room in the house to pray, contemplate, imagine, and write. I didn’t have much time to work through the joys and sorrows of life. I was in a sprint. These are the times when pray continually is the only way to have time for prayer. For me, it feels a bit like telling God, “I am not sure why you gave me so much to do. I don’t have time to sit with you right now so come with me!” I grab his hand and drag Him through my days. When I have a moment alone, it is brief and the moments of prayer are quick, “Thanks, this is awesome!”, “Wow, that’s a beautiful sunrise!”, “Help, this is not going well.”, “This is a perfect moment, thank you.” Often it feels like I am holding fast to His hand to make sure He is with me, sometimes squeezing tight, pleading for help, in the midst of the chaos. I am suddenly reminded of Jacob and his moment in honest conversation with God in which he won’t let go until he is blessed.
That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome. Genesis 32:20-28
Do your moments of chaos include moments of blessing? Do you demand a blessing?